Husband Brian

 My goodness.  How do I start?  Where does one began? There is a time or two in one's life where he feels desperate for God.  That sense of desperation is an invitation to call on the invisible one who resides in the heavens.   When I say heavens, I mean not physically.  God is not physically in the heavens.  God is not corporeal and God doesn't have mass.  God is everywhere, but not in everything, but everything is in Him, "for in Him we live and move and have our being". The heavens refers to being above it all and so much so that you could go through one heaven and reach a second heaven and go all the way through that infinite progression to the third heaven and there you find God. Really though, God is right here. I have had three times when I was desperate for God.  Once I was fifteen years old, dumb, foolish, didn't know how to make or keep friends.  The guys who chased me down as a friend were not good people, there were two ...

 They say, it's because you can't handle the truth.  How do they know?  Do they know what my reaction will be and it isn't what they wanted to see?   I learned that a pastor we had when I was a teen, advertised himself as a major in the air force.  I was doing some online research today and I can't find evidence that he was a major.  Yet, he was a pilot in the air force.  What's wrong with that?  Besides that, whether or not he was a major or a pilot has nothing to do with his ability to pastor.  It turns out he only actually pastored three years out of the past 46 years. What kind of  "pastor" does that? I have heard exaggerations and lies and I don't know what else my whole life.  People who claim to be God's man and they don't excell beyond a couple of years of fervency.   What I have come to understand in later years, 61 of them, is that there is a lot of prevarication and lying going on.  I wish there were m...